i seriously want to delete this blogspot..as in get rid of mantousays...that is why i have not updated...

have you ever had moments where you wish you could just capture and bask in for the rest of your life?? ...

yeah well i'm having one right now...i'm home alone, listenning to some awesome Christian songs, reading a book and chilling infront of my labtop and i feel soooo good right now, so at peace, so joyful, so content and satisfied...God's presence is sooo real right now. =)

i know that this new year is goign to start off on the right foot and i'm totally hyped to see what the Lord has instore for me and my friends. altho i may not know what i'm doing post-grad, i'm ok cuz i know what i need to do for the time being. =) so, a thank you to all those who have supported me in prayer or by simply saying hi and smiling at me...it means a lot. =)

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!" Phillippians 4:4

random thoughts:

#1 bschool people are sooOOO spoiled!! they just got like 50 new computers in the lower level..all flatscreen panels and the whole mile..sheesh...=P

#2 dang, 2 more days then i will be finally done with this semester..this is probably the worst semester i've done academically.. senioritis, what can i say??! ;)

2 more finals, pray for me p-p-p-please!! :D

#3 shout out to my cousins and my bro: I"M NO THUG! just cuz i want the Undercover Brothers DVD don't mean i'm a thug! ;D hahahha (see this is what i get for trying to incorporate other cultures into my life..HMPH!!!) heeheehe

#4 man, its been 3 days w/o AIM..i'm going crazy inside...sigh...2 more days, 2 more days...don't know if i can last..doh! ;D hehe

#5 who wants to see Lord of the Rings II with me either thursday or friday?? sigh...any NYers?? strong islanders?!?!

#6 been chillin' with ellen and jlu lately and its been such a blessing. =D sistas are sooo good to have. brothas too, but these 2 girls get a special mssg ;) *teardrop

yeah i'm just random today...thank God i've been more motivated to study today...love you Lord!!

Christmas Banquet is friday! woo-hooo! i'm really excited about it cuz my friends are coming =) yay!!

looking back at these last few months, i am just really happy about how things have turned out. Eventho sept and oct hurt so bad, I'm a lil more able to see why God allowed things to happen the way they did...but, yeah He's turned the second half of the semester around..its been really awesome to meet the new people that i did and to be able to enjoy the blessings of college different from the last three years...no doubt that the last three years are all special, but this year is such a change.

ok i'm sooo tired...nite..

thanks howie. =) hahahah

ok, well i have some really sad news...

the JUMP missions trip got cancelled...i'm sooo sad, but i know there must be a reason for why it happened...i guess it wasn't meant to be... now there's the D-UP trip, but i just found out today that only 7 ccfers can go...and so i don't think i'm going to go...but maybe i'll go on a stm this summer?? =D

my future is still up in the air..media jobs are really hard to find, especially entry-level ones...contacts anyone, contacts??

this is gonna be quick since i have a 12-13 pager due tomorrow morning...

but in the spirit of Thanksgiving, i have to say that i am soooo thankful for the people God has put into my life!!!! :)

oh my gooshness, YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! I really do cherish my friends...

roomies, thank you for saving me dinner tonite, which i must say is delicious!!!...
hailey and tony, thanks for packing me dinner too and bringing it all the way here! awww, i'm so glad wer'e in the same sg!
charles, oh my gosh, thank you soooooo much for helping me w/ my paper..you don't know how much it means to me!!!!
wendy, diana, henry, & evelyn, you guys are so much fun, i'm sooo happy that we got to meet and hang out this year! woo-hooo! i'm excited about how the rest of our year will go!
gracew, thanks for always calling me to ask me how i am, i'm so glad we reconnected this year!!
ellen, andrew, and han, i'm soo glad we got to chill the other weekend, you guys are so much fun! =D
fellow bloggers, you know who you are ;D thanks for being so dedicated and "spurring me on" to blog more...
vball fellowship, i love love LOVE playing with you all and i have to say is: "life is short. play hard"
pierre, fellow ill person, thanks for asking me how i'm doing eventho you're sufferring 10x worse than i am...
liz lin, thanks for leaving that sweet, cheerful message for me..you're awesome!
joo, thank you so much for spotting me a dollar so that i can get water to calm my coughing attacks =)
donna, thank you soo much for making me feel special and loved...i love you soo much!
diana, you're so sweet, can't wait to see you in a day! woo-HOOO!
jlau- CONGRATS on your engagement!! woo-HOOO
joseph, thanks for always listenning and giving me godly advice =)
mom, dad, davey, pou-pou i love you soooo much, can't wait to see you tomorrow

ok there's soo much more to be thankful for, but to conclude:

i have tasted and i have seen that Lord is GOOOD!!! :)

dedicated to guarding our hearts..

story time...
"A good friend, Matt, modeled this idea of guarding a girl's purity in his relationship with Julie, the woman to whom he's now married. Long before they began pursuing marriage, both felt deeply attracted to the other. But during a certain season, God made it clear to Julie that she had to focus on nHim and not be distracted by Matt.

Although Matt didn't know this at the time, he made it his priority to guard Julie's heart during this time of waiting, even though he felt personally drawn to her. Matt controlled his desire to flirt with Julie. He passed up opportunities to spend time alone with her, and when they were in group settings he refrained from singling her out and focusing too much attention on her. He avoided doing anything that would make it harder for Julie to focus on serving God.

This season didn't last forever, and eventually Matt and Julie became engaged...Julie explained before their wedding how grateful she felt that Matt had enough maturity to put her needs above his own. By making her emotional and spiritual purity a priority, Matt helped Julie focus her mind and heart on God. If Matt had acted selfishly, he could have distracted Julie and ruined what God wanted to accomplish in her life." (IKDG J.Harris)